Don't look around too much...This is only a peek. If I catch you snooping around, you will be eliminated!

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

One fast mother...

It was windy enough to blow your clothes off, but we still went racing. Overall a great night. We broke our fastest speed and ran an 11.95 at 114 mph, that's an increase from 11.97 at 112 mph. We were so excited, Alex met me at my car as I pulled into the pits doing the happy dance as I yelled "Yeah 11.95 at 114" and he adds "and you even drove it back in one piece!" It was a good night, I think we could have even gotten a little more out of it, if it hadn't been million mile an hour winds. Seen a lot of people from last season, it's like a giant family over there. Jason came over to see what a real race car looks like, and to put his two cents in on everything. (Just kidding Jason)

It was just an overall great day. I wish everyday could be like this. The weather was great (a little windy but I can't complain too much), school was fun (I even left early), good songs were on the radio, every stop light seemed to turn green at just the right time, it was as if nothing could go wrong.

A great ending to a great day. I hope for more of the same.

Until Then,
Take Care,
You know you love me,

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Cleaning or posting...

I've been working on cleaning my room now for a while, so I decided to take a break and post a new entry. It's been a week or so since my last update. A lot has went on...where to start, where to start.

No dancing again Thursday, I had to set up my work for my Major Acceptance Review. It was 12:15am and Alex and I were still at school setting all my stuff up.

Friday was the big day. My review. I arrived at school at around 8:45 and already my nerves were flowing. The lady Nancy, with whom I shared my review space with, was already there, and I helped her to set out the bagels and strawberries that we bought to butter up our review panel. Nancy had her turn at 9:45 and I was next. I stood in the hall and was so worked up that I couldn't even swallow. I've never been that nervous or worked up in my life, but as soon as I walked in the door it was all gravy. I began talking and just never shut up. I talked a lot about my work and they asked me a lot of questions. Each student had 15 minutes to "wow" the panel and for the last 3 minutes of mine, we were talking about drag racing volkswagens, and how I needed to get everyone a race schedule. So, needless to say I left there feeling pretty good. I had to wait until Monday to get my results.

And the results are in........


Thank God.

This weekend was nothing too fancy. I had petting zoos on Saturday, and Sunday, Tricia and I had to dress up like the easter bunny for a country club in Eureka. It was funny as hell. Tricia and I took turns in the suit, and we were playing air guitar and following people around. It was good. Sunday night the Nickel came over and we sat in the hot tub for a while. Good times, good conversation.

Tomorrow we start racing. We sent out sponsorship information earlier this week, so keep your fingers crossed that we get some takers. All the cars are fueled and ready to go. The gates open at 5 and we plan to be in line. It's just a test and tune, but points start Friday, so we want to at least see how the cars will run. I'm so excited.

The bus is back in order, daddy bought a new carberator for it and we were taking it around the block yesterday. I like it better now then before. The gas pedal just needs some adjusting. I have too much play in it and it messes me up while I'm trying to drive. All in good time I guess.

That's all for now, school is keeping me pretty busy. I start work at Weithop's on Friday, so maybe I'll have some spending cash finally. (yeah right)

Take care,
You know you love me,

I have to apoligize to everyone that had to come in contact with me this past week/end. It was a bad week for me and I am sorry to anyone and everyone who I was crabby to. This week proves to be a better one, so just hang in there.

Also, a GREAT BIG HUGE thank you to Aunt Patty. She just bought a real cool new digital camera, and I have been monopolizing it for a while now. She's been really patient, and hasn't yelled at me yet. Thank you thank you thank you. It's been a real big help.


Tuesday, March 22, 2005

To beer or not to beer....

So, I displayed my public art today at Dierbergs in Lemay. I had them all ready with the tape already on and Alex and I went in. We had to circle the store a couple of times because a man was stocking in that isle. The whole process took us about two minutes and I hurried and stuck the signs on and Alex snapped a couple of pictures and we hurried out. We plan to go back later tonight and see if they're still up. It was a great fun time though.

Nothing too exciting this weekend. We lost our soccer game Sunday 5-1. The other team had this fabulous goalie. Damn them. Then I tried to get into the hot tub Sunday night and realized that I had it set a little too high. I couldn't even get in all the way. The thermometer said it was 107 degrees. Yikes...it was hot!

We began wheel throwing yesterday in ceramics. What a joke. This girl in my class Emily and I were laughing soooo hard together. We were the only two that tried it out yesterday and we had clay going everywhere. By the fourth or fifth time we had it under control a little better. Hopefully, I will begin making beautiful pots for all to want....lol.

I'm working on preparing my portfolio for my Major Acceptance Review on Friday. I'm pretty nervous but I'm confident that things will go well. Wish me luck.

All for now, more to come.

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Public Art at Dierbergs....

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Whiney wishes

It's been a bad night and I'm crabby and whiney so I decided to type some wishes and thoughts.

1) I'm having a hard time supporting my friend in a new relationship. Not even a relationship per say, but a new interest. This person is just acting their age, but has bigger responsiblities. I want to be excited and giddy right along with this person, but am having a hard time.

2) I wish sponsors would just come knock on your door. It would make this whole racing thing a whole lot easier.

3) I wish people would be more upfront on what their thinking and not leave it to guessing.

4) I wish the transmission wouldn't be going out on my red car.

5) I wish some people would grow up and stop being such fucking babies. Life sucks, but we all have to deal with it.

6) I'm having a hard time trying to decide what art pieces to put into my Major Acceptance Review on Friday. If they ask me to resubmit, which could happen, then I have till next fall to get some better stuff together. I don't need that kind of stress. I'll just have to do a good job this time.

7) I wish school was free.

8) I wish people wouldn't take things so seriously all the time. I'm a fun person and just like to make jokes with people. Lighten up.

9) I wish I could just go to bed and stop typing this crap. I apoligize to anyone who had to sit through this. My blogs are not intended to downtalk or upset anyone. I'm not trying to be mean just joking around.

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Friday, March 18, 2005

Different shit same night....

So last night was Thursday, you know what that means...dancing. Not last night. Due to my money crisis and lack of peers, I decided to do something different. I didn't know how to act at first, here it was 9:30 and I was drinking beer, so it kinda reminded me of Wild Country, but I was outside sitting in a lawn chair instead of inside dancing. It was alright though. Different for a change. I convinced my buddy Jason that I would come over if he bought the beer. He agreed. So, I got there and we went up to Quick Trip and made the beer purchase. Bud Light, nice choice. I sat and watched him put his front breaks together on his bug that he thinks is way cooler than mine (it's not). He's a typical boy about it though..."I got aluminum this and light-weight this and my car is going to be so bad....blah blah blah blah blah" I've heard enough. I'll believe it when I see it. And even after I see it, it still will be no way as near as cool as mine. Well, maybe as cool but definately not cooler. Just cool in a different way. Mine is turbo and his is going to have NOS. We'll see how it goes. Good luck with that Jason, I wish you the best. heheheh lol

So guess what big breakthrough happened today.....I DROVE THE BUS AROUND THE BLOCK. That's right I drove it. Shifted and everthing. It was sooooo.....bad. I hated it. I felt like I was driving in a tunnel. The carb was messed up and so was the gas pedal. Also, I couldn't get the mirrors adjusted just right. I just felt unsafe beacause I couldn't see all around me while I was driving. I like to be able to see what going on around me. Hopefully things get better, I don't know what would happen to me if I told Stephanie that I didn't like it. I think she's more excited about camping and driving in it than I am, if that's possible.

Well, it's 3:10 am and I need to get to bed. I have a petting zoo at some daycare in the morning.

Until Then,
You know you love me,

P.S. I need a bumper sticker that says "If the bus is a rockin', don't come a knockin'" If anyone has any ideas on where to get one, It would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Let me know what you think....

Mid Spring Break

I'm bored. My buddy Donny left today for Amsterdam. He will be studying abroad for the second eight weeks of school. It will be sad without him. My carb came for the bus today. Dad worked on it for a bit, but then got frusterated (don't know if that's spelled correctly) (don't really care either). Basically I worked on my public art project all day long. I hope to be able to post it after I write this blog. It had to be about a social issue and you have to make like fliers or maganets or something and then display it in an appropiate place. Mine has to do with drunk driving, so I thought maybe I'd put them on cases of beer at the grocery store. Haha, wait for me to get kicked out. Otherwise today, I didn't do too much. Woke up at around 11 this morning. Someone kept me up on the telephone till all hours of the night last night. Thanks a lot. Anyways, I don't know about dancing tomorrow, depends on if I get some money. Nicolas won't be there, he's in Kentucky visiting family, and Tricia said she's prolly not coming either. So that means I'll go by myself, which wouldn't be the first time.

That's all for now, Cory's bitching at me to cut his hair, so I must end this.

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Spring Break Time

Welcome to Spring Break...It would be more fun if I was actually going somewhere. O well, just being off of school is good enough. This is a weird semester for me. I haven't really felt like I've produced a whole lot and I've been in classes for eight weeks. But I did finally come up with some inspiration, so hopefully some good art will come soon.

I didn't go dancing for the first time in a while. I'm having a money crisis you see. The problem is that I have no money. Although, I did talk to Wiethops this week and I'm starting there on April 1st. For those who don't know, Wiethops is a little greenhouse down the street, our two families have been friends for a long time. Dad does all the maintence on their lawn equiptment. So, if there's a special flower that is your favorite just let me know and I'll see what I can do about it.

I think my time at the farm is coming to an end. There is drama out there like no other. Everyone out there just needs to grow up, me included. We have a communication problem. Noone can ever keep a regular tone with each other, it's always like everyone is yelling at each other. Sure, we have good days, shit we have good weeks, but it always ends up the same, we always come back to fighting about the same things. Someone wants this day off and someone didn't do this right and so on and so forth. Everyone is in everyone's business, and thats fine because there's only four of us, but the problem is everyone is in everyone's business behind everyones back, and that's not right. It makes for not such a fun time. I'm tired of getting yelled at because I talked to someone. I'm not asking this person to buy me flowers and take me to dinner, I'm just asking to get an answer to a question. Geeeezzzeeee. If we work at the same place, then we have to learn to co-exist in the same area. How rediculas.

This is that last weekend that I have free. Next weekend is Pslam Sunday and we have a numberous number of petting zoos. So, I'm enjoying this weekend doing nothing. Today was the first day of test and tune over at Gateway Raceway. Hopefully the boy's motors will be finished soon and we can all go and break some parts!!! (Just kidding mom)

That's all I've got for now.
Take Care,
You know you love me,

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

It's cram time

Here I sit. 6:41pm on Wednesday night. I have my last midterm in exactly 14 hours and 19 minutes. Am I ready for it? No way man. It's all slide memorization and I just can't drill it in. I periodicly gaze at them throughout the day and hope that something sinks in. AHHHH I just wish this was over. But by 10am tomorrow it will be. I'll be free to think as I like.

So my drag car took its first breath of fresh air yesterday. What a beautiful day it was. So now the search for sponsors is on. If you have any ideas please don't hesitate to let me know. I'll get a new pic up soon.

I think that sometimes we get so caught up in the busy details of everyday life that we forget to slow down and express to those who we care the most how much we really value them. We're living on borrowed time. Life is only so long and one never knows when their time is going to end. Live every day like it's your last and don't forget to express your feelings to those around you.

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Monday, March 07, 2005

Pool Tables and Apple Sauce

Weekend Scale Rating from 1-10...15.5

It was a good weekend. Thursday was dancing as usual. Tricia ended up going and Nicolas showed up later. Good wholesome fun. But it was really funny when we got back to his apartment. Apparently something smelled really bad when we got there, my nose was all clogged up so I didnt smell anything. But he was FREAKING out! So he decided it was the toilet and after a little bit he was fevorishly cleaning it. There's more to the story but you'll have to let him tell you the rest. Visit his blog at www.nicarley.tk and ask him yourself.

Friday, Daddy and I finished up getting the racecar motor in. Hopefully tomorrow we will start it up. I met Nicolas at the office and waited for him to finish his "work stuff." We went to his hometown, Salem. It was good fun. We went to some small bowling alley bar and they shot pool and we drank plenty of beer. It was fun to hang out with cool people in a cool place and not worry about anything for a change. Uncle Steve was a little much, but I suppose I'll forgive him this time. We ended up staying the night as his brother's place.

Saturday was not as exciting. I sat and played playstation with his brother's two kids while he did some wiring on their new house. ALL DAY LONG. O well, one thing was funny though. While in the attic, Nicolas missed the joyce he was supposed to step on and just about put his foot right through their ceiling. His actual foot didn't come through, but it cracked the ceiling and stuff. Funny.

Sunday was soccer at 4. We lost terribly. Half of our team wasn't there, so we had some random players help us out. Man we sucked so bad. I don't even want to talk about it. Nicolas actually came to watch. Of course, the game he actually comes to we lose, bad. O well at least he came.

So, on to another note. I don't like losing. If I know that I'm particularly bad at something and someone else is better, I just won't play. Why would you do something that you know you're going to lose at? Don't get me wrong now, I'll take risks, but if it's a for sure loss, I'm not so happy to do it. I understand that you will never get better at something if you don't try, and I do try just not in the view of certain people.

That's all for now. Wish me luck on my midterms. I'm studying all this week. I have spring break next week, and hopefully I'm going to run away with a certain someone. hehe

Take care,
You know you love me,

Life has a funny way of working itself out. Sometimes it just needs time to run it's course. Take your time.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Happy Birthday to Alex

So Alex turned 16 today. What a day. He's been real mouthy all day and I told him that I liked 15 much better. So I feel bad because I didn't get him a gift yet, but I don't have any money. Like none. Zip Zero Zilch Nada. I'll get him one as soon as my money tree begins to blossom.

Racing season is quickly approaching. I can't wait. Daddy's been putting my motor back together and checking everything out getting it ready to put in. Hopefully we'll put it in on Friday. I just can't wait for the sweet smell of burning alcohol and tire smoke. Friday nights at the racetrack are like an escape from reality for me. It's like a mini vacation. It's a bunch of nerves and anticipation, sitting on the starting line waiting for the tree to fall. Total concentration.

So I have a mid-term in my Study of Non-Verbal Behavior class on Thursday. I don't think it's going to be that bad. I haven't missed any classes and I've taken fairly good notes. Plus she's going to give us like 16 words to define and we have to choose nine that we think we can do our best on. Then she's going to give us six essay questions and we have to pick three. So that doesn't sound all that bad.

I still need to shoot some pictures for my Public Art project in photography. I need a nice day and Tricia and Nicolas. Good luck with that, I know.

Tricia and Taylor got into a car accident last night on their way home. While I was heading home around 7:00 the radio kept saying how Highway 30 was slick and everyone becareful and such. Well Tricia said that the car that was in front of her started to lose control and then hit the car in front of it. She pulled on to the side of the road to make sure everyone was alright and as she was standing in front of her truck another truck came and hit the back of hers pushing it into her! She started screaming that Taylor was in the truck and ran and got her. Luckly it wasn't too bad. She said her hip just really hurts and her bumper is bent and a couple of scratches. Taylor was sleeping the whole time. What a mess!

So Joe got outta jail today. I wonder how that went. I'm waiting to hear from Dana later this evening. Everywhere I go now, more pieces fall into place. Alex and I had went up to Sam's today to drop off some film and then I started thinking about how I gave Joe two rolls of film to drop off while he was "working" and then like four weeks later I found them in the van right where I put them. And all he could say is that he must have forgot to drop them off. But like five days after he was supposed to drop it off and it was ready to be picked up and it wasnt there and I asked him about it, he was like "I don't know, I droped it off, they must have lost it" hmmmmmmmmmmm. It all comes together now.

A lot of random thoughts today. That's how my brain has been working lately. Really scattered.

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Friendship is like peeing in your pants. Everyone can see it, but only you can feel the warmth.