Don't look around too much...This is only a peek. If I catch you snooping around, you will be eliminated!

Sunday, February 27, 2005

And the weekend closes....

So, I made it, and all of the children are still alive. LOL. Although on Saturday morning I was making a call out for three body bags, one extra small and two small. It went well though. I think it would have been different if I was at my own home. I just felt like I got nothing done, probably because I got nothing done. If I was at my house I could have done something while the children slept. It was alright though. We all played at the park for 2 1/2 hours on Friday, and I had to be a "park mom" and I hated it! I had to listen to other moms complain how they can't keep their house clean, and how do I get my children to behave so well and on and on. I was like "oh these aren't mine, I just have them on lease for the weekend"

Nicolas finally showed up on Saturday night around 7:40. Of course, after Taylor had left and Mitchie was in bed. How convenient! It was funny though, we seen Aunt Moni pull in and he thought it would be funny if we were sitting on the couch with the television off reading the bible together. She came in and was like "Thank God you guys aren't naked, Wait what are you doing! Stop that!" It was pretty funny. We left there and came back to my house and sat in the hot tub for I know at least 2 hours probably longer. We were so pruney! We slept in this morning, well slept in as long as you can sleep in while the vaccuum is going. We helped dad with our input on the bus lights dad was working on and made some runs to Auto Zone. We sat in the hot tub once more and I left for soccer and he went back to school. We won our soccer game 3-1 and all was good.

So, on to some different news. So this won't mean a lot to people who don't know my past, but for those who do, you're not going to believe this. So I came into my room this morning and I had a voicemail on my cell phone. It was a number I didn't recognize so I called and listened to the message. It was Dena, the girl that Joe was sleeping with when he and I were together. Remember that whole deal? Well so, she wanted me to call her back, she said she didn't want to start any shit, just had some questions. And so I called, and her and I hit it off and talked for like 40 minutes. I learned more about Joe in 40 minutes then I did in 2 1/2 years of dating him. She must have apoligized to me like twenty times, saying she was so sorry for seeing him while I was, but he was lying to her too. I was like "that's alright, I'm well over that now." But anywho, remember I let him live here for 6 months and drive my cars and eat our food and so on and so forth, and he never paid us anything...well he told me he was working at Sams. Dena tells me he only worked there for ONE WEEK. One week, can you believe that shit. He "worked" there for like 4 months as far as I knew. She said he would come over to her house in my car!!!!! WTF?! And I knew something was fishy with him working there, but he is a very good liar. She said sometimes he would park my car up there in the parking lot and then Shaun would come pick him up and they would go out. See, he was very smart and always came home right at like 6:30am because he "got off work" at like 6:00. And I would ALWAYS ask him about how his day at work was and he would concoct this huge story about how work went. Jeeezzzee what a fool. She said he told her that the only reason he stayed here was because he didn't have anywhere else to live, and that we didn't even sleep in the same bed. Where else would he sleep? What a crock! And I told her how he would cry to me and tell me how much he loved me and how sorry he was that he made me sad and that he would make things better soon and she started laughing about how he does that same stuff to her. Man, this guy is good. So he's in jail and has been since January 3rd. She says he gets out Tuesday, and he wants her to come and pick him up and bring him cigarettes and weed. What an idiot. He's on probation for 5 years but she says he says that if he smokes right out of jail then he will flush out before they test him. Good luck with that. She says shes not risking her job and family (she has a 3yr old boy) to take a day off work to come and pick up his ass. I joked with her and told her that we should show up together down at Clayton when he gets out. She laughed and said, "he probably wouldn't even get in the car." Probably right. She said she had been meaning to call me sooner but Joe had deleted all my numbers and everything from everywhere so she couldn't get to them. So after a lot of tracking she got a hold of me. I enjoyed the conversation and it gave me a little more closure, because I was just so out in the dark about everything about him. Our whole relationship was a lie. Well, she told me more stuff but I think that's enough for now. Life is funny isn't it?

It's Sunday night, let's have one hell of a week this week. Summer's coming!

Take Care,
You know you love me,

End of the weekend...

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

As the weekend approaches...

Why do I like to put myself in stressful situations? I dunno. Stupidity? It's possible. This weekend will be different from my prior ones. This weekend I will be in control of three, count them three, children all under the age of 3. Taylor, Chloe and Mitch will be my companions starting Friday at 7am until late Saturday night. Wish me luck, I'm sure it will be an adventure.

So, recently I've been informed of some disturbing information concerning a proir boyfriend. I'm sure you can all figure out who it is, but the question I hand to you is...Why did ya'll let me stay with him for so long? Apparently everyone else could see what I couldn't. I was being used. And I hate that. And I know I should let it go, and I had prior to the news. Apparently he had been involved with someone I know, doing things he shouldn't have been doing. What a fool. Do I just have a sign on me that says "I'm real gullible and easy to take over?" Because that's what I feel like sometimes. And I'm not pissed at him (well okay yes I am) but rather, I'm mad at myself. I'm mad that I didn't even take my fathers advice when he sat me down to ask what the hell I was getting myself into. "Oh daddy" I'd say. "It's not what it looks like" but guess what folks? It was exactly what it looked like and I was blinded by what I thought was love and couldn't see what was right in front of my face. Alright, sorry enough ranting, but I feel MUCH better. feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew.

So, dancing is tomorrow and Tricia is trying to pursuade me into going bowling instead. I don't know about all of that. I'll have to see how I feel tomorrow.

Until Then,
Take Care,
You know you love me,

P.S. Just a short correction. The title of my last post was not intended to be about anyone I know. It was just a phrase that was heard at the party that Tricia and I attended. Some people were starting to take offense and that was not my intention, and I apoligize to those people.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

Two Pump Chump

Last night, Tricia and I attended a sex toy party at our friend Jerilee's house. Talk about a fun time. We talked about things we shouldn't have talked about and spent money on things we shouldn't have spent money on. The hostess lady was really funny. Any type of lotion or creme that she put on your left hand was your licker hand, it was edible. And anything she put on your right had was your sniffer hand. She said you can sniff your licker but by all means, don't lick your sniffer! lol Anyways, we had too much fun.

Friday night was uneventful, and that's an understatement. Ask me what I did. Go ahead, ask. You give up? Nothing. I did nothing. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. I layed on the couch and watched like three movies. The person I was with was preoccupied with other things I suppose. Not really my idea of a fun time, I could have watched movies at my own home. O well. Hopefully next weekend will be better!

Thursday night was dancing. All night dancing. Tricia and I stayed till close and danced the whole time. Fun times.

Today daddy and I are having to take the motor back out of the bus. The starter seems to have a problem. I just bought this starter on Friday. This is the second one. I don't know what the deal is, but now we have to take the motor out and clean everything, because the starter has got shavings all over the place. Wish me luck.

Soccer is at 7 tonight, and now I have also commited myself to playing softball on Monday nights for twelve weeks. That isn't starting yet, but pretty soon!

That's all for now,
Take Care,
You know you love me,

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

It's hump day!

Welcome to Hump Day, I mean Wednesday. Ya'll know what tomorrow is don't you? That's right, it's Thursday. Dancing! Can't wait. Hopefully, I'll actually stay this week. I danced for like three songs last week then left because my shin splints hurt so bad. But this week, I've taken it easy and they feel better. What's this weekend hold? Hopefully lots of fun stuff. Taylor turns 2 on Friday, so I think we're going to do the whole Chuck E. Cheeze thing. That should be fun. Hopefully I'll have a partner to go with me, so that I can beat him in skee-ball! Then who knows what's gonna happen on Saturday and Sunday. Hopefully something fun.

Dad and I were convinced that we were going to be able to drive the bus around the block last night. We were sooooo close. The motor was in, and everything was hooked up. We had pushed it out into the driveway and taken some pictures, dad had the fire extinguisher ready (silly dad), and we were pumped up. The time had finally come. So I turn the key and......nothing. The motor had tried to turn over but it wouldn't. We were depressed and convinced that we had just worked a whole day for nothing. Dad called the shop and Jim had said that it was no problem. The case for the transmission had not be clearanced enough for the flywheel of the motor. So, I had to loosen up the motor a bit and pull it out slightly and manually turn the motor. The flywheel is steel and the transmission case is magneseum (sorry I can't spell that). So in essence I had to grind the case down myself by turning the motor by hand. What a pain in the ass! So after what seemed like days of cranking, we were ready to try again. As I sat in the drivers seat I once again turned the key. It was turning! But then the starter went out. Dad took it down to the shop today and they said that they were out and wouldn't have anymore in until Tuesday. Just my luck. So now everythings on hold until then. Wish me luck though. We're so close.

That's all for now. School is....well school. Nothing exciting to report there.

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Front end...

Notice the bottle?

Back end...

1964 Bug..Complete with NOS!

Monday, February 14, 2005

Once upon a time in my brain....pt. 2

The sun is setting, and off in the distance Gwendolyn is seen prancing happily down the lightly grassed trail to the other side of the grounds. She bids farewell to the guards, who instruct her to becareful and behave herself, and continues on her journey. Soon, she reaches Napoleon's castle once more. She quietly enters and finds Napoleon doing math on his abbacus. She motions hello and finds her way into the game room. While in there, Napoleon appears with nothing short of a dozen beautiful roses, a box of her favorite chocolates and a hand written card, just for her. Now Gwendolyn can't believe what is happening. All this just for her? Without a second though, she takes the roses and indulges herself in a long invorgating breath of the sweet smelling flowers. She smiles sweetly as she takes the chocolates and reads the card. Napoleon stands there beaming from how happy he has just made the princess. She quickly throws her arms arounds him and they kiss. What a perfect night! Something so sweet and so unexpected, almost makes Gwendolyn cry. They chat about the day each had and how happy they both are to be rid of the week, and look forward to the busy weekend ahead. Although they do not spend their weekend together, they chat often and keep in contact. A meer misunderstanding on both parts leave Gwendolyn and Napoleon apart for the latter part of their weekend, both wishing each other was there, but no way to get there. Gwendolyn feels this is going in a better direction than last week, and hopes that Napoleon feels the same. As you can see, Napoleon has had a lot to think about and is just trying to find what makes him happy in life. We wish him well!

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Happy Valentines Day everyone. I love you all. Dad, Alex and I went to Ohio this weekend to pick up Dads new bug. I'll put some pics up hopefully tomorrow. It's one bad ass car. We also got the motor in the bus so CAMPING HERE I COME!! All is good here...hope all is good there.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005


"Make new friends, but keep the old. One is silver and the other's gold. A circle's round, and has no end. That's how long I'm going to be your friend."

That's a classic quote that goes out to my best buddy, Stephanie. Best wishes to her and good luck on her test tomorrow morning....she refuses to study so she needs all the luck in the world!

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Once upon a time in my brain...

Once upon a time, in a far away land, there was a beautiful blonde named um...... Gwendolyn. Yeah Gwendolyn. So anyways, Gwendolyn was always seen out in the fields taking beautiful photographs of her golden retriever, who had yet to be named because she just couldn't figure out the perfect name. She would often been seen leaving the palace and heading across town to an undisclosed location. When asked where she was going, she would always respond with "Out." Where she was really going was to meet a prince named Napoleon. See, Napoleon was a handsome fella with superior qualities much above the rest of the kingdom, but he had his downfalls also. While there, Gwendolyn was treated as a princess, which she really enjoyed, but as soon as she left the prince's castle, she was shut out. Gwendolyn just couldn't understand this erratic behavior that the prince was displaying. How could they have such a great time at his castle, but rarely speak outside of those grounds? Gwendolyn was beside herself and concerned with the decision that was placed before her. Does she shut out the price completely and then not even enjoy the few days that they do prosper together, or does she just continue on the ride of confusion that she's been on for the past two months? See, she really likes Napoleon and values their time together, but it just seems that he doesn't feel the same way. She just can't see shutting him out all together because she values their friendship. Although they don't speak too much while they're not together, Gwendolyn knows that if she ever needs anything, or someone to talk to hopefully Napoleon will be there. She's tried to speak to Napoleon about this subject, but he just lets it roll off his shoulder. So, Gwendolyn is faced with a decision she doesn't really want to make, but she doesn't enjoy the way things are going at the current time.

Stay tuned for the next chapter in this story...

If you have any ideas for Gwendolyn please let the author know, and they will be taken into consideration.

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Monday, February 07, 2005

It's been a long day for a while...

So, I'm not dead. That's good. Although at some points this past week I probably would have felt better if I had been. All in all, a great week. I got to hang out with some real cool people and do some crazy stuff. I'm convinced that the security guards at Wild Country think that I live there. I was there Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights. All three nights until close. They've got their fair share of my money. Mardi Gras was good, couldn't have asked for better weather. It was BEAUTIFUL out. From what I remember I had a great time. We were in someones house in Soulard and hanging out the second story windows. I've seen more boobs in the past 3 days to last me a lifetime. I'm not really in the mood to type too much right now so this is just a short update. I'll go more in depth later.

Soccer last night was good but late. The game didn't even start until 11:30 pm. I only had like 6 penalities called on me this time so that's an improvement from last game. We ended up tying 3-3.

All for now, I have to go to class.

Hope everyone else had a great weekend.

Take Care,
You know you love me,

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Mardi Gras?

So, Saturday is the big day. Downtown St. Louis Mardi Gras. One of the biggest outdoor parties in St. Louis. They're predicting good weather so keep your fingers crossed. I have plans to attend this shindig with some friends, but who knows whats going to happen. I haven't got any thing concreted yet, so let me know if you're planning on heading down and we can meet up! I hope to get down there by like 930 or so. The parade begins at 11, so drinking should begin prior to that. This week is just dragging by, and I think it's partly to blame on the big weekend that is coming up. Mardi Gras and Superbowl in the same weekend. Sounds dangerous. I can't be too foolish on Superbowl though, I have a soccer game at 1115pm.

Get your beads out and lets get ready to party!!

Take Care,
You know you love me,