A PEEK INSIDE dARLA'S WORLD

Long time gone...

2006-08-21T19:32:00.000-05:00

It's been a long while. I graduated school in May and have since started my own photo business. Check out my website at www.schollmanstudios.com I also just got hired on with the Mehlville School District to do substitute teaching. That should be pretty exciting. I probably won't get any work until middle of September because most teachers do not want to miss the first couple weeks of school. I'm a little nervous so wish me luck. Other than that, life is good.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

some pics...

2006-02-16T15:38:00.000-06:00

Hey...not too much new news. Valentines Day was good, Nickel and I had reservations at Ruby Tuesday and that was nice. School is starting to get really really busy...like pull my hair out busy. Other than that nada. Heres some recent pics for you!! Here's a link to Nickels blog where our Valentines pics are..Valentines Pics

Because I wanna be a cowboy baby...

2006-02-12T01:57:00.000-06:00

I had a pretty exciting weekend. Me and the girls all went out. The girls meaning the girls that I went to grade school with. Stephanie, Maggie and I first all went to dinner at some place down at the Loop I cant remember the name of the place but it was fancy there and our bill for 3 of us was 80 bucks!!! YIKES! It was good though. We then met up with Liz and proceded to Saddle Ridge in Westport. It's the new country bar out there. What a disgrace to country bars is all I have to say. First off the dance floor was teeny tiny then noone was line dancing except for like 6 people and everyone kept getting in their way. They were drinking beer and smoking on the dance floor and it was awful. I bet half those people haven't even ever seen a damn cow and they thought "Hey look at me, I'm at a country bar country dancing" just because they were stomping their foot on the wood floor. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH We did have a great time though and I miss hanging out with them on a regular basis.

What's new, what's new.... Um...school is good I suppose. Liz makes me skip classes all the time, which is no good. Nicolas and I are getting along semi-well. It's day by day but getting better. I just need to get my head out of my ass and get on track and then things will go a little smoother. I'm afraid of getting hurt and I think thats why I haven't totally let him back in yet. I'm trying though...gimmie some time.

That's all for now, I'm feelin' sleepy.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

It's been a bad week comin'...

2006-01-28T22:15:00.000-06:00

I've had a pretty bad week this week. Actually the entire week hasn't been bad just the past 3 days. It's alright though. Everything happens for a reason and things will begin looking up for me here real soon. I know it.

School is going well. I will have my first art opening on April 14. It will be a group show with all the graduating seniors this year. I think there's around 12-14 of us. It should prove to be a good show and I'll post more info as soon as I obtain it.

Daddy's still in the hospital. He has been since Monday. He's fine though, he got his defibulator replaced on Tuesday and everything went great, he's just sitting up there waiting to get thinned out. He's pretty bored but mom got him this cable that goes from his cell phone to the laptop so that he can surf the net, so at least he has something to do. He'll be home soon. We miss him.

Until Then,
You know you love me,
*;)

Soccer time..

2006-01-22T23:18:00.000-06:00

Guess who scored a goal tonight in soccer? Oh yeah, that's me.....lalalalalalalelelel

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

You just might make me believe...

2006-01-20T12:33:00.000-06:00

I got miles of trouble spreadin' far and wide
Bills on the table gettin' higher and higher
They just keep on comin', theres no end in sight
I'm just holding on tight...

I've got someone who loves me more then words can say
And I'm thankful for that each and every day
And if I count all my blessings,
I get a smile on my face
Still hard to find faith..

But if you look in my eyes
And tell me we'll be alright
If you promise never to leave
You just might make me believe

Its just day to day tryin' to make ends meet
What id give for an address on easy street
I need a deep margarita to help me unwind
Leave my troubles behind...

I used to believe in use
When times got tough
Lately I'm afraid that even love is not enough

But if you can look in my eyes
And tell me we'll be alright
If you promise never to leave
you just might make
Oh, you just might make me
You just might make me believe

Informative Survey

2006-01-19T13:15:00.000-06:00

Name: dARLA MARIE GWENDOLYN SCHOLLMAN
Birthday: 10*05*1982
Birthplace: St. Louis, MO
Current Location: St. Louis, MO
Eye Color: Green
Hair Color: Blonde
Height: 5'5"
Right Handed or Left Handed: both
Your Heritage: German and ?
The Shoes You Wore Today: New Balance Tennis Shoes
Your Weakness: hot boys, motorcycles, nice cameras, money, smiles
Your Fears: Thunder, traintracks
Your Perfect Pizza: Meat Lovers
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Win first place in racing a couple of times
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: Shut that damn alarm off!
Your Best Physical Feature: personality
Your Bedtime: depends on the night
Your Most Missed Memory: My sister and grandpa
Pepsi or Coke: Dr. Pepper
McDonalds or Burger King: McD
Single or Group Dates: either
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino
Do you Smoke: smoke what?
Do you Swear: I've been known to once or twice
Do you Sing: I try
Do you Shower Daily: I try...lol
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: I am in college so I guess yes
Do you want to get Married: eventually
Do you belive in yourself: most days
Do you get Motion Sickness: Only when Aunt Patty is driving crazy on backroads
Do you think you are Attractive: some days
Are you a Health Freak: No
Do you get along with your Parents: Very well
Do you like Thunderstorms: no and neither does my dog
Do you play an Instrument: haha maybe the kazoo
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: this question should be in the past 24 hours have you drank alcohol....yes
In the past month have you Smoked: ?
In the past month have you been on Drugs: ?
In the past month have you gone on a Date: I suppose
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: uh huh
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: close to it
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: gross...Tricia makes me try to eat it...yuk
In the past month have you been on Stage: um no
In the past month have you been Dumped: um no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: its too chilly outside
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Oh I'm sure I have
Ever been Drunk: lol funny
Ever been called a Tease: Indeed
Ever been Beaten up: maybe
Ever Shoplifted: yes
How do you want to Die: In my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: me
What country would you most like to Visit: Austria

In a Boy..
Favourite Eye Color: Blue or Green
Favourite Hair Color: Blonde or light brown
Short or Long Hair: short
Height: taller than me
Weight: Not a fatty
Best Clothing Style: depends...t-shirt and jeans can be quite sexy sometimes
Number of Drugs I have taken: 1
Number of CDs I own: a whole lot
Number of Piercings: I have 6 piercing holes
Number of Tattoos: zero I can't think of anything I'd still want to have on me when I'm 80
Number of things in my Past I Regret: I regret some of the stupid fights I've engaged in with my family and friends...Life is short, live it to the fullest. You only live once.

Random Pics for your enjoyment...

2006-01-11T00:20:00.000-06:00

Bet you thought I was dead...

2006-01-11T00:08:00.000-06:00

Okay so it's been a while. I've been busy doing nothing. Just relaxing enjoying being off of school for a couple of weeks. I go back next Monday and that sucks.

Christmas was good. Got a Cardinals 4 pack for the new stadium so I can see some games there. Nicolas made me this really cool picture book of the two of us. That was cute. I got an external hard drive so that I can get all these pics off my computer.

New Years was good also. Nicolas and I spent it just staying in and watching movies, we also went to dinner. It was very nice and very relaxing.

Everything else is pretty good also, I've been quite addicted to MySpace and that's why I haven't really blogged much. It seems to consume me. It's bad really.

My photo career is starting to take off. I met with some women tonight about doing a wedding in late June and they loved my pictures. I also just shot some pictures of a 5 week old little boy that's a friend of a friend. Hopefully she likes them and I can get in good with her bc her two girlfriends had babies the same week she had hers. That would be a good group to get in with if you know what I mean. People love pictures of their little babies, and what a deal, I love to take them.

Soccer is good, I'm trying to get into a Monday night girls team also. Mom and I are looking for a way to get rid of our extra fat and we toured CURVES last week. It was really nice there but a little expensive, so we'll have to keep looking.

Thats all for now,
Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

and the grades are in...

2005-12-23T13:45:00.000-06:00

Well, grades are finally here. I'm overall pretty happy with them, but I'm a little upset too.

*Photography V - A
*Drawing III - A-
*Ceramics II - A-
*Book Arts - A-
*Critical Thinking - B+

I wish I could have brought that Critical Thinking grade up a bit more. That sucks. I haven't been in much of the typing mood lately, sorry. I've been trying to get things finished for Christmas and getting Nickel moved into his new place and taking my dog to dog school and the list goes on and on. I'll write more later and fill everyone in on whats going on.

Until Then,
Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

The time has come...

2005-12-16T21:44:00.000-06:00

The time has finally come for this semester to be over. I think I did pretty well. Ill let you know when grades come in.

Congratulations to Nicolas. He graduates tomorrow. Ill post some pics as soon as I get some.

Everyone let me know what you want for Christmas and if I havent got you anything yet, I think about getting for you.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Finally Finals...

2005-12-13T00:18:00.000-06:00

Finally the time has come for finals...time to study and get your best work together... Can't wait for this week to be over...

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

How's this look?

2005-12-04T14:05:00.001-06:00

Before

This is how it looks now

Just another Tuesday

2005-11-29T16:40:00.000-06:00

Just another Tuesday afternoon. Here's just a quick list of some things that are going on with me lately. I'll be brief with them, email me if you want more info about one certain thing.

+ Daddy is coming home today. No surgery yet.
+ School just won't end this semester for some reason.
+ It's cold as shit outside and I hate it.
+ I think my wife and I are getting back together.
+ My dog has chewed my parents bed and that's bad news.
+ I need to do some Chrismas shopping.
+ Liz and I are going to start shooting weddings.
+ I recently shot some family portraits and they turned out nice.
+ My brother Cory is growing up and going through that stage where he doesn't want to be around us.
+ Everyone is getting handmade pots for Christmas.
+ I'm looking to buy a new car..well not a new new car just new to me..a beetle of course.
+ I'm supposed to be doing work study and instead I'm doing this.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Gobble Gobble

2005-11-24T20:08:00.000-06:00

Happy Thanksgiving. Nothing too new here. School is coming to a close and I still have a lot to finish up. I am anxiously awaiting end of semester though. Deer season is over and I collected all my dough and it looks like some people might get some Christmas presents after all.

All for now,
Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

P.S. Send some prayers. Daddy goes into the hospital on Monday. He's getting his defibulator replaced. Not a big surgery, but a surgery nontheless. He should be home by Friday.

Let the deer wrapping begin...

2005-11-11T08:57:00.000-06:00

This will be my only post for about a week or so. Gun season for deer starts tomorrow, so you will be able to find me in Cedar Hill, dressed in my carharts and a scarf, making some mad money before Christmas. I think I'm about finished being sick which is awesome because I thought I was dying there for a while. The holiday season is rapidly approaching and I feel stressed out already!
Dajha had her first puppy class last Wednesday. It was so cute, it's just her and one other puppy. A real cute small one named Ophilia. (dont know if I spelt that right but you get the idea) Ophilia is the type of dog that is always high strung and is always choaking on the end of the leash and walks only with her back legs because the two front ones are always in the air as she tries to go faster. Needless to say, we were sitting in the chairs as the lady was explaining to us what we were going to learn and as the lady said "Today we are going to practice on sitting,..." Dajha immediately sat. hahaha The other puppy was running around on the end of its leash like it was on fire. But, by the end of class, Ophilia was doing much better. I brough Liz with me and her and I took turns making Dajha sit and heel. She did very well and seemed to enjoy it. I hope so because we have 7 more weeks of this.
I drove the bus today for the first time in 2 months. Alex was getting me tires for the rear end and it just took this long. Well, I now remember all the small things that I need to fix before winter time comes. I think maybe I'll work on that today and then go to the farm for a while.
Hope all is well where you are.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Sick Sucks

2005-11-09T07:03:00.000-06:00

I'm sick, and it sucks.

The End.

Workin' for a nickel...

2005-11-01T22:54:00.000-06:00

There comes a time in one's life when they have to stand back and look at their life situation though new eyes. There is also a time when it's okay to be selfish, and think about one's own self, especially when others are often thought of first. Situations may not always conclude like one may like them to, but sometimes, that's for the best. Do what makes you happy. I'm not sure what's to come of my situations, only time will tell that, but I'm sure of one thing, I'll do what makes me happy, and what I can benefit from, both mentally and physically.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
You know I love you,
*;)

Bye bye Busch

2005-10-28T23:00:00.000-05:00

Here's some shots of the stadium that I took earlier this week. I think they turned out pretty nice. What do you think?

Until Then,
You know you love me,
*;)

A sad time in St. Louis

2005-10-19T22:37:00.000-05:00

It's a sad night in St. Louis, as we all watched our beloved Cardinals lose to the Houston Astros 5-1 in game 6 of the NLCS. We all wanted this year to be "the year" as this is the last season for the old Busch Stadium. I hope to go and take some pictures of it one last time before it gets tore down. It will be greatly missed, but we will have a new ballpark to begin making memories in. Only time will tell if the new ballpark can capture all the spectacluar (?) moments that the old Busch Stadium did. Thanks a lot boys for having a great season.

Until Then,
You know you love me,
*;)

P.S. Thanks to all that listened in to my broadcast last night. I hope you were all entertained.

Volksbash radio

2005-10-17T09:47:00.000-05:00

Listen up everyone. I'm supposed to be doing an online radio show tomorrow night. I haven't got any more info on it yet but here's the web address. monks media The show runs from 8-9pm. Tune in for a funny time.

Until Then,
You know you love me,
*;)

A good wholesome time..

2005-10-09T17:30:00.000-05:00

Had a great weekend at the track. Cory participated in the 2005 Jr. Dragster Halloween Nationals. Although he went out first round both days, he still sold his motor for 2 grand and had a lot of fun. We drank beer, walked the dogs and went trick or treating to get some FREE candy. What a great holiday if you ask me. I love free.

The farm party is on October 22nd, and this is an invite to all of those who have not yet been invited. It's a fun bonfire beer drinking kind of time. Lots of people, lots of beer.

Nothing else real exciting. I'm getting ready to finish up my Book Arts class at school. It's been a long two weeks, I've been at school until at least 1230am and sometimes until 330am trying to finish up my books. It's a lot of labor, but it's going to turn out really nice when I'm finished. One more week of school and then I'm on fall break. A whole week of no school, I can't wait. I think I'm going to put some hours in at the factory and try to make some money and also go to the farm and try to get that place in shape for the party.

I sold my lildojh, my red beetle, earlier this week on ebay. It was sad, but she needed to go. She was sooooo rusty that you got more wet inside the car when it rained then you did outside. It really put you in a bad mood. So, now I'm looking for another one. I talked to the bank and my other loan is almost paid off, so why not just get another. lol

That's all for now I suppose,
Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

What a day...

2005-10-05T22:50:00.000-05:00

The day is over and so is my birthday. It was well worth the wait though. I had a good time and laughed a lot. Here's some pics. Enjoy!!

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Happy Birthday Dinner...

2005-10-04T18:07:00.000-05:00

Dinner. Tomorrow. 6 O'clock. T.G.I.Fridays on Lindbergh. Be there or be square.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

P.S. Bring BIG presents!!!

I'll explain later...

2005-09-27T01:40:00.000-05:00

Wish me luck...

2005-09-21T12:24:00.000-05:00

We're heading out to Indianapolis this weekend for the final vw race. I can't wait. I have been in contact with the people in charge of the whole race and they said they were still working on some sponsorship money for me and they hope to get some and it will be there waiting for me. Yiipppeee.

Anyways, school is real hectic, and my friends are acting weird. I'll post more later.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
dARLA *;)

Happy Birthday to my grandma...

2005-09-16T09:40:00.000-05:00

Happy Birthday Grandma!!!

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

I'm still here...

2005-09-12T23:30:00.000-05:00

Just a short post to let everyone know I'm still here. School and life has just been real hectic. Drop me a line and I'll fill you in. Everyone say some prayers, we all need um. Until then, here's some pics.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Dajha

2005-08-29T10:40:00.000-05:00

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

GUESS WHAT I GOT...

2005-08-26T01:55:00.000-05:00

Guess...comon guess...you know you want to. What have I wanted all my life, other than my cars and the camera? THATS RIGHT A GOLDEN RETRIEVER PUPPY DOG!!! My very best friend in the whole wide world presented me tonight with the greatest gift lately. I'm not sure on a name yet, its a her. Tricia and I were thinking Dojha. Lemme know if you have any other ideas. She's sooooo cute. Thank you thank you thank you. Here's some pics.

School part 1.

2005-08-24T18:36:00.000-05:00

Oh school, how I've missed thee. LOL. So as the first week of school wraps up, I have plenty of things to think about and do. My classes shouldn't be too bad, just labor intensive. Here's my classes, because I know you were dying to know!

*Drawing III
*Book Arts
*Critical Thinking
*Ceramics II
*Photography V

The only class that I think is going to be a problem is the Drawing III class. I tell ya, I don't know how they let me pass drawing II, I can barely draw a stick man!! I can draw you some pretty cool abstract shit, but nothing hardly that resembles an actual object. The professor for that class is really scatter-brained and he's hard to handle. Plus, to make matters even more complicated Liz and I have that class together, so you know nothing gets done. We just laugh and carry on the whole time.
Ceramics should be pretty cool, we're going to learn how to make some plates and bowls and lids and such, I'm also going to continue on with my volkswagen theme that I started last semester.
I need some ideas on what to make a book about in Book Arts. We need to have our text by Monday. Now mind you, I'm not writing a book, I'm simply designing a book. So it can be someone else's text. Like my one friend is using some lyrics from a song for her whole book. It doesn't matter. You can have one line across the bottom of each page and that can be the text for your book. I just want to have something interesting. I have to design the colors and fonts and ideas and the binding and so on.

Nothing too exciting I know, but just an update of what was going on. Let me know what you think.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Ultimate Update

2005-08-19T13:25:00.000-05:00

Sorry it's been so long between posts. I've been real busy. Okay, so, where to start. Um...Nickel has moved outta his apartment and is back up at school. Far far away, so that sucks. We had our family reunion here at the house a couple of weeks ago, that went pretty well, the only nice day outta the whole month and we got it. I came in second place at the Volksbash all VW race over at Gateway. I won $350.00 that went straight down to Archway to help pay off some of my debt down there. They also have my motor right now. Daddy and I took it out earlier this week because something inside it was knocking pretty bad. I'm trying to come up with some extra sponsors to help get us to and from Indianapolis (?). The 24th of September is the finals of the Volksbash and I really really really wanna go. So any ideas on some sponsors please let me know. Tricia has come on our team to help us play soccer. It's been amusing at least! (just kidding Trish you did great) I also decided to make a giant purchase. I bought myself the new Canon Digital Rebel XT. It's an 8 mega pixel camera that's top of the line right now. I'll be in debt for a while, but at least I'm happy. Other than that nothing real exciting. Getting ready to go back to school. I'm taking 4 studio classes, so we'll see how much free time that leaves me.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Soccer Pics...

2005-08-19T13:18:00.000-05:00

Here's me and Tricia having a great time...

Pics from Volksbash...

2005-08-19T13:07:00.000-05:00

Family Reunion Pics...

2005-08-19T12:40:00.000-05:00

What does the future hold...

2005-08-03T08:54:00.000-05:00

Well, I survived my weekend, or more importantly the children survived the weekend...lol. It went pretty good. We said goodbye to Stephanie who left us to go back to Colorado. That was sad. It seemed like she just got here. Summer is going by so fast.

Nickel is getting ready to move. We havent really done any packing, and I have a full weekend with my family reunion and a big vw race, so he's got a lot to do on his own. He's going to Florida next week, and then I guess back to school early. It'll be a sad time, but everything will work out according to how it's supposed to, I guess. I just try not to think about it. Outta sight, outta mind.

On a funnier note, we've got his big industrial saran wrap for the tires of the racecars, and yesterday Alex and I grabbed Cory right as he was coming out of the bathroom from getting his swimsuit on and we saran wrapped him all up. His arms were all bent and pressed aganist his body and he could hardly move. He got up the stairs and outside to dad who had to cut him out while Alex and I were crying from laughing so hard. I had no time for pictures, but we plan to saran wrap him to a chair next, so I'll get a pic then.

Well, I gotta go and finish getting the house ready for this weekend.

Until Then,
You know you love me,
*;)

Please pray for me...

2005-07-28T15:25:00.000-05:00

As this week ends and the weekend begins I step into the caretaker postition for Chloe and Mitch. Friday thru Sunday. Please pray that I don't make a call out for two very small body bags!!

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Times change people...

2005-07-27T02:10:00.000-05:00

A different kind of blog entry for me. I just wanted to reflect a little bit on how people change. It's likind of funny how fast some people can change. Within just a few months things can go from "a-ok, let's party" to "hey, how are you? How have you been?" It's kind of dishartening (?) if you think about it. I recently attended a party in which I used to frequent but this time is was different. Funny different too. It went from being a great time to just being another party. It didn't make me feel very good, but then again, time changes people, and that's just something I suppose I have to accept, like it or not. Life goes on and people grow up (I think).

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Happy Birthday Tricia...

2005-07-22T17:59:00.000-05:00

Just a post to say Happy 20th Birthday to Tricia. We've had some rough times, but I think I can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. THANK GOD!!! Happy birthday Trish, the countdown is finally on, 365 more days, lol. I love you.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Big Race Time...

2005-07-22T17:58:00.000-05:00

Wish me luck we're leaving for the track. Big race this weekend, all weekend. It's gonna be a hott one!!!

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Bad night

2005-07-20T23:30:00.000-05:00

Had a bad night a real bad night my mom and dad came and picked me up from the baseball game. Im gonna go and lay down and prya that rtomrrow is a better day...

Days go by...

2005-07-20T15:35:00.000-05:00

I recieved my wastegate and turbo in the mail this week, so dad, Alex and I spent the earlier part of today putting it on. Hopefully after a quick carb adjustment the car will run well. Keep your fingers crossed. This is a big weekend. It's the NOPI Nationals over at Gateway. We run Friday Saturday and Sunday. It's gonna be hot out.

Last weekend was fun, camping at Lake Carlyle and going on Uncle Steve's boat, waterskiing.

One more month of summer left and then school starts up. Looking at alot of change in the near future. Hopefully it will be for the better. But, you know what they say, things always get worse before they get better, so... Other than that, things have been going alright.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Take my survey...

2005-07-18T20:13:00.000-05:00

You know I'm hot, just tell me already!

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Redneck yacht club

2005-07-13T23:18:00.000-05:00

Nothing new I guess. Talk about a bus of a time. Stephanie and I took the bus to the Lake of the Ozarks last weekend. They have a bunch of construction on 44 by Cuba so we took some other random way. Well needless to say Steph didn't know where to turn off the secret way so we went all the way to Jefferson City and then to the lake. It was a little over a 4 hour bus tour, but hey, the bus made it and made it well. We did have to stop and get fuel half way there but that's alright. Steph wanted to sleep in the bus so Saturday night after our bottle of margarita mix and some beers we went and crashed in the bus all night..it wasn't too bad, we plugged a fan into the power inverter and it was quite nice, close but nice. So earlier that day me and Steph decided we wanted to go boating and her little brother Scottie and his buddy Nick wanted to go also, so we went and then I wanted to go tubing. No big deal. I got out on the tube and off we went. 15 minutes later I was tired of tubing but the boys wouldn't look back at me so I could motion to them that I was finished. I later learned that they found my Cosmo magazine that I was reading and were engulfing themselves in it and reading about why women don't wear underwear. So we hit a big wave and I flew off, but the boat kept going and going and going.... I was like "shit" so I swam outta the main channel and over by some guys dock so that I didn't get hit by any boats and then like 2 minutes later here comes the boat flying around the corner and Stephanie was yelling so loud even I could hear her. So, the boys got in trouble and we went back and docked the boat. It's funny now, but as the boat was going outta sight I didn't think it was quite so funny.

On a different note, I finished this really cool video of Taylor. It took me like 4 full days of work, but I think it turned out real nice.

We're going to try and go camping this weekend, me and Nickel and Steph and Tricia and John I hope. Who knows but it would be real fun.

Soccer resumes this Sunday and I start softball next Monday. Can't wait!

That's all for now,
Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Chippendales on my mind...

2005-07-08T00:50:00.000-05:00

Talk about the funniest thing that I've seen lately was last night at Harrahs. Stephanie and I recieved two tickets to see the Chippendales from my beautiful grandma. We got there and got our seats and then went to get a drink from the bar and guess who walks in? Julie and Maggie (for those who don't know the four of us plus one more (Liz) were inseperatable (?) in our younger years). It was so great. The show started and Stephanie and I could not stop laughing. Four of them came out in leather pant and shirts dancing like Backstreet Boys or something. I rolled my eyes at Steph and told her that this show better spice up soon because this was lame. And sure enough it did just as they were ripping their clothes off. After a couple more dance routines all the boys came out into the crowd to dance for dollars. You'd wave your dollar around and then one would come and hump all over you and you got to shove your dollar down his pants. What makes this even funnier is that I bet 50% of the crowd was my grandma's age! There was this one grandma at the end of our row who had more dollars then she knew what to do with. She just kept waving them around and getting humped all over! Finally one of the guys made her stand up and he bent her over her chair and pretended like he was getting her from behind, all the while smacking her on the ass!! Mind you this lady was like 70 years old!! I never laughed so hard. That grandma spent the rest of the show chain smoking. So, needless to say all of us got our "dollar's worth" of the show and we then proceeded downstairs to have some drinks at the Ibar. It's Harrahs new bar. It was pretty cool. We met up with some of the dancers later in the Voodoo lounge and had some more drinks. So, overall the most fun I've had lately and I couldn't have asked to have it with a better group of people.

For me the summer is just beginning. Last week was Carlyle Lake. This weekend is Lake of the Ozarks and then back to Carlyle Lake next weekend for camping. Heck yes bus!!

I need to get serious sometime soon, my debit card is running out of money. No good I tell you, no good. But for now, tubing, waterskiing, waverunning and camping sound like a pretty good idea.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Hott boys on the beaches and cold beer in my hand...

2005-07-07T01:05:00.000-05:00

So, this weekend was a fun one, we went to Carlyle Lake and went tubing on Uncle Steve's boat. Fun times were had by all.

Hott boys

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Happy Birthday Nickel!!

2005-07-01T14:33:00.000-05:00

This is a post to say Happy 22nd Birthday to the Nickel.

Couple cute pics...

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Taylor...

The gang...

Too much fun...

Wish me luck!

2005-06-23T22:35:00.000-05:00

We leave tomorrow morning for Freedom, Indiana. They are having an all vw 1/8 mile race. It should prove to be an exciting adventure. I can't wait to race an actual vw. We're bringing dad's car too because they're also having a car show. Wish me luck, I'll let you know how it goes.

On a side note, dad's heart doctor called today to let him know that his defibulator (?) has been recalled. So him and I went up to the office so that they could run some tests on him and make sure his was working properly. And it was. He was going to have to get it replaced in October anyways because the battery is almost low and apparently you have to get them replaced every 5-7 years anyways. So, 2 out of like 300,000 people who have this device have had it malfunction and they've died. The doctor said that he would probably be fine, but no guarantees, and then asked dad if he was a risk taker. We both just looked at each other and smiled. Mom on the other hand did not think it was funny. So, looks like he'll be going in sometime in the next couple weeks to get that taken care of. The bad part is that he has to be in the hospital for 5 days, two days before hand to thicken up his blood and two days for the procedure and one day to thin him back out before he can come home. So, everyone say your prayers and things will be fine. I'll let you know before he goes in.

A lot of chaos lately, I won't pain everyone with the story, but let me know if you're interested and I'll be happy to explain.

Like I said, wish me luck on the races and pray that we make it there and back safely.

Until then,
You know you love me,
*;)

cute pic of Taylor that I took

Blah Blah Blah

2005-06-21T10:00:00.000-05:00

If something exciting was happening, then I would update more often, but it's not. Saturday night was pretty fun though. We played music for some friends of ours wedding who got married at the racetrack. We were drinking champaign by the bottle from the bottle. It was fun until it was 5:30am and we were just walking in the RV to go to sleep and then we had to be awake to do our racing at 8:00am. That part sucked, but the rest was fun.

My wife and I are back together, so that's good. We kissed and made up and hung out last night. We went grocery shopping and to drop some pictures off at John's parents house. How rediculous that was. We then came home, ate all the new food that we had just bought at the grocery store and watched the movie "Hitch." It was sooooooooooo funny. We laughed the entire time. I would definately recommend it.

Other than that, soccer was good. We didn't win, but I did score a goal. I talked to my buddy Mike earlier this week, and we got all caught up on things, I hadn't talked with him in a long time, so it was good to catch up. Stephanie is back from Maine and today is the first day of summer.

What's everyone doing for 4th of July this year? I'm not sure yet on what my plans are, so if anyone is doing something really fun, please let me know.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

P.S. A quick hello to my good buddy, Randy. Now get back to work!!! Hahahahah.

another week checked off the calendar...

2005-06-12T21:38:00.000-05:00

Another week in life to check off the big calendar. Nothing even too exciting this week. Stephanie and I went out again on Wednesday, Heggar got a new apartment down by Tower Grove Park and it was Bob's birthday so we had to celebrate, Bob's way. It was a good time from what I can remember. Illinois was Thursday. Racing was Friday. Chloe and Mitch were Saturday. And, soccer was Sunday. We won our game and then Kim and I stayed and played with the next team, we tied that game. Oh yeah and I got some raft floating in, and I'm sunburnt. All over.

So, I think my divorce might be final. I tried to call tonight but with no avail. I left a message but that's it. It's a sad time in my life right now. It's funny how people can be so hypocritical (not quite sure how to spell that). But, that's life, and life's not fair.

That's about it. Really. Not too exciting huh? I've got a list of children I need to photograph, so I just need to call them tomorrow and get some times set up and also talk to my favorite Aunt Patty and see if I can borrow her camera.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

2005-06-08T17:21:00.002-05:00

Nice shot...

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Yeah bus!!

2005-06-08T17:21:00.000-05:00

Enjoying the show??

Good Times...

2005-06-07T23:20:00.000-05:00

So camping went great, like I knew it would. I made it there and back with minimal problems. My companion was more fun that I expected them to be. I also won two attendance prizes, tickets to the sneak preview of Herbie Fully Loaded and some VW DVD, also the bus got plastered with maganetic flowers and peace signs and got his picture taken for the Mid-America catalog(?). Camping was SOOO fun and I can't wait to go again. Sleeping in it was better than expected.

Stephanie called me tonight and we went out to Hot Shots to watch the Cardinals game and drink some beer, and beer we drank. It's always a good time with her, especially when you don't get charged for one of your pitchers of beer. BONUS!!

So, it looks like my wife and I are getting a divorce. Divorce sucks. I'll let you all know how it plays out.

I'll include some pictures of the Effingham show when I get a chance. It was really hot but a lot of fun.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Camping here we come...

2005-06-04T17:00:00.000-05:00

So, the Nickle and I are getting ready to leave for Effingham to go to Funfest 2005. I can't hardly contain my excitement. The bus is loaded down and the fuel tank is full. Say your prayers to the VW gods that we make it there and back safely, (I have no doubt). I have had a lot go on lately, but not a lot of extra time to actually sit down and type, so hopefully when I return I will update everyone on what's been going on.

Until Then, Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

P.S. Just a quick note for someone, they know who they are, even though you don't love me right now, I still love you and I'm thinking about you.

2005-06-02T00:24:00.001-05:00

Happy Birthday to my mom!!

2005-06-02T00:24:00.000-05:00

oh mom!!

2005-06-02T00:23:00.000-05:00

haha

Eat my turf...

2005-05-22T22:55:00.000-05:00

Soccer was SO rough tonight. The other team, The Scoobie Snacks, thought that they were hott shit and just kept shoving us around. We took the quick lead and by half we were leading 3-1. They came back to tie it but we ended up winning, but not after I got kicked out. This girl on the other team kept shoving the shit outta me so finally I had had enough and started pushing back. A penalty got called on me and as I was turning around, the girl was right in my face yelling. "CAN'T YOU PLAY WITHOUT PUSHING!!" I said "I CAN PLAY WITHOUT PUSHING WHEN YOU START PLAYING WITHOUT PUSHING!!" The ref quickly stepped in and told us to settle down. I again began to turn around when she just would shut up. We got into it and needless to say, we both got kicked out. The game only had like 5 minutes left so no big deal really and thank God we won. At the end the girl wouldn't even shake my hand. Ha!

So onto grades.. before I reveal the results let me set a scene for you. At midquarter I recieved a C+ from my painting teacher and I thought that was fair because I had never had painting before. So I worked real hard and never missed a class, that is more then I can say for the teacher though. He was never there. He would walk in and announce a work day and then leave, never to be seen again. What a crock then when critique time would come around I would get all this negative talk about my work, but no help to improve it. So when finals came around, we had to drop our paintings off and we could pick up our grades the next day from the office. The next day came and he again game me a C+. I couldn't believe it. Now, I'm no Piccasso, but I know for a fact that my second quarter stuff is much better then my first quarter stuff. So I promptly went looking for him to discuss this matter and of course he was no where to be found. I left him a letter in his mailbox telling him to call me to discuss my grade. Well he never called but I did notice that he gave me a B- for the semester. Which I am happy with, better then a C+. So with that said here's the rest of my grades.

History of Western Art B
Painting I B-
Ceramics I A
The Study of Nonverbal Behavior B
Alternate Photography A

So the semester didn't turn out too bad after all. I was pretty satisified with my grades for the most part, I wish I could have done a little better and had my A's outweigh my B's but there's always next semester.

THE BUS THE BUS THE BUS

Funny story I tell ya. I was driving the bus around today, keep in mind that it has no plates and I just got insurance on it two days ago so I have no proof of it yet, and Lukas (5) and Emily (9) and I decide to go up to the fueling station and get some fuel. Well wouldn't you know that there was two goddamned cops in the lot. Just my luck. So we decide to just drive on through because if I stopped for fuel I was for sure gonna get caught. So as we were pulling outta the gas station we were getting pulled over. Son of a &*^%!!!

Emily quietly says "I'm scared dARLA."
Lukas loudly exclaims "Not me, I'm not scared!"

I told them to settle down and sit straight. The officer was a typical ass and began giving me the 20 question game. I explained everything and he strode off with my license. He returned in a much better mood and presented me with my one ticket. I was grateful, because he could have given me like three. He ticketed me for failure to register with the DOR. He says once I get my plates I can get the fine excused and then I'll only have to pay court costs which is $51.50. That part sucks, but at least that's all I got. So, no more leaving the subdivision without liscense plates. And the kicker is that mom and Alex took the damn bus all the way to Auto Zone today and didn't get caught. Just my luck I tell ya.

That's all for now, sorry it was so long.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

P.S. For those who were wondering, the cards are once again outta the box and I think the flap might even be tore off. And not only tore off but tore up!!! Yikes.

2005-05-18T00:55:00.000-05:00

The new graduate and his proud parents...

2005-05-18T00:54:00.001-05:00

more of me...

2005-05-18T00:54:00.000-05:00

Lookin' Good....

2005-05-18T00:52:00.001-05:00

just me

2005-05-18T00:52:00.000-05:00

Me and my daddy

All the small things...

2005-05-16T22:45:00.000-05:00

I think that all to often in life we forget about the small things, and life is made up of a bunch of small things. It's the small things in life that make other people smile: a card just to say "thinking of you," a kiss for no reason, a smile from someone you don't even know, a secret note that they don't find for three days....you get the idea. I challenge everyone this week to do one small thing for someone else, and if you're really feeling ambitious then do something small for two or three people, I guarantee that it will give you that feel good feeling. Try it you'll like it!

"It's funny how the follies of the people closest to you can be used as a kind of currency to buy your own allure"

It's kinda sad how true that is...

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Love him or leave him?

2005-05-15T17:48:00.000-05:00

I haven't posted in a while. Been really really busy with the end of school. THANK GOD that is over. All my grades arent in yet but I know I got an A in photography and a B in my Study of Nonverbal Behavior class. I still can't believe that this semester is over. I've now got an entire summer ahead of me. I can't wait. Camping, drinking beer, boating, drinking beer, going to the lake, drinking beer, sleeping in, running away... it's going to be a good time. Work at Wiethop's only has one week left then I have to decide what else to do. I can't hardly wait, Stephanie comes home this week hopefully and then the summer will officially start. As for my car problem I still haven't got that figured out yet, but now that schools out I'll have more time to devote to that. I don't have too much exciting news this time. My weekend was good, went dancing Thursday, D.J.'d an 8th grade party on Friday, went to Illinois on Saturday and went to work on Sunday.

If I come up with any new news I'll get back to ya!

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Broken Dreams

2005-05-07T20:55:00.000-05:00

It's been a bad week for me as far as cars go. Make sure you're sitting down while you read this.

The red car is broken, probably never to be driven again by me. It was due up for inspection in April and when Daddy took it last week, the guy took him out to the shop and showed him the underneath. He said he was surprised that you couldn't just pull the front tires off everything was so rusty. So needless to say parts will cost about $300 and Daddy and I can fix it, but is it worth our time? The car is so rusty everywhere else also. When it rains, so much water comes in the floorboards that I feel like I'm riding Thunder River at Six Flags. Both my driver side fenders are busted in, the hood is all rusty and I'm surprised that the headlight hasn't fallen out yet because of the rust. So, I have to make a decision what I want to do, fix the red one or sell it and get another one. What does everyone else think?

Next sheet of bad news....

I thought I blew up the motor for the racecar again. I made one good pass last night and then in the middle of my second pass, I felt something break. It wasn't good. I shut down and coasted off. Luckly this time I didn't blow any holes in the case. The shop has it now and hopefully Jason is taking good care of it and getting her all fixed up.

So cars have been my enemy this week. But some good news, the bus is ready for plates. Hopefully by this time next week I'll be driving the bus around and until I find another beetle.

School is almost over and it's been hell. I do nothing except go to work, go to school, go back to work, go back to school and go to bed. Seriously I've been at school every night this past week until at least midnight if not later. But, it's almost over, finals are this coming week. My photo project turned out real nice and I got real good critique on it.

Well, that's all for now, I've got to get back to work.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to every mother..... lol that just made me laugh for some reason. Seriously though I love you mom.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

End of semester....

2005-05-01T20:40:00.000-05:00

Here it comes again...the end of the semester...THANK GOD! Painting what I'm really looking forward to ending. I just can't stand that class. I mean I've never had painting before and the instructor is of NO help. He just saunters out with his coffee cup and says it'll be a workday and we never see him again. It just frusterating. I couldn't love ceramics anymore if I tried. I love the instructor, I love my classmates, I just love the environment. Wednesday night there were five of us there until 2 am. I have to send out a congradulations to my buddy Michael, I just found out he's going to be getting married this summer. Damn you! That's the great thing about being an art student. The art building is open 24 hours a day. If we get inspiration at 3 am we can come in and act on it. I don't even think the doors lock in that place.

My final project for my photography class has to do with reflection. I decided to capture the reflection of my bug in the hubcaps of 18 wheelers as they cruise down the highway. Needless to say, that was an adventure. I have to thank Alex for all his help and Aunt Patty for the use of the camera. Alex and I went a little past Sullivan, MO down 44 and back. It a pretty far way for those who don't know. Let's just say we had to get more fuel in order to get back home. I got 71 shots though, so I think thats pretty good. Hopefully this project will turn out nice.

Nothing else too new. I got a new body wave put in my hair last week, so now it's real curly. Soccer tonight was alright. We were missing half our team, so we didn't really play up to par. We did try out a new goalie though. Bob was pretty good for being new. Work at Wiethops is going good, but I only have like 3 or so weeks left. I then have to decide what else I want to do. I thought about calling Dave from Saratoga (where I got my senior pics taken) and see if he needed any help, he offered me a job a couple of years ago. I also thought about getting my portfolio together and trying to get some freelance work. We'll see. I also need to get ready for camping. Tricia pack your stuff and lets get the hell outta here!!!!! Let's run away (we can bring Taylor too).

That's all for now.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

P.S. The cards are outta the box...Damn it!! I can't even find them all to put them back in! I was so close, they were all in and the flap was even shut! I hate this!!!

2005-05-01T20:19:00.000-05:00

This one almost looks photoshopped...

2005-05-01T20:17:00.000-05:00

Spinnin' wheels...

2005-05-01T20:16:00.000-05:00

More truckin'

2005-05-01T20:03:00.000-05:00

Truck Chasing....

2005-04-27T00:54:00.001-05:00

Last season at Busch....*sniffle*

2005-04-27T00:54:00.000-05:00

dARLA and Alicia

2005-04-27T00:52:00.000-05:00

dARLA and Chris

2005-04-27T00:51:00.000-05:00

Chris and Alicia

2005-04-27T00:49:00.000-05:00

Chris, Alicia and me at the ballgame...

I've been taken out to the ballgame...

2005-04-27T00:35:00.000-05:00

Nothing, I mean nothing tops a phone call invite to the baseball game when you least expect it. I was on my way back to school tonight to do some work when I got the call. "What are you doing? You wanna go to the ballgame with us?" Heck yes I do! Although it rained some, we had awesome seats and a great time. Big pretzels were eaten by all! Thanks Alicia and Chris!

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Irritated

2005-04-21T21:19:00.000-05:00

Not too much has went on since last week. But since it's that time of the month to be irritated I decided to make a list of things that irritate me. Get cozy, this could last a while.

People who don't use their turn signals. If they're out of blinker fluid, I understand, but com'on let's get that fixed.
Bad breath.
People at work that think that they are better than you for some reason.
Planter fasciitis.
Ugly people.
People who use the word hate.
Gas Prices.
Not getting enough sleep.
People who walk into a closed bedroom while people are in there "sleeping."
People who say one thing but then somehow seem to act another.
Barking dogs.
Driving 46 miles one way.
No beer.
My car with a hole in the heater channel so that when it rains my car fills with water.
Teachers that never assist you or even come to class even though you pay them an ass load of money.
People who complain all the time..lol
People who come over and mess with my compuer equipment and think that they are the compuer god and really just shank things all up. Damn you.

Okay, I feel better now. Sorry I had to put ya'll through that.

So I went into Lemay earlier this week and visited with an old friend from St. Martin's. It was a grand time. Someone gave her a chick for Easter, and well now, it's a chicken and she doesn't know what to do with it, so I told her that I would take it to the farm. She said her son had named it "Super Girl." So, Super Girl and I started our adventure to Tricia's. I let the chicken out in Tricia's living room and it pecked around the carpet for a while until Tricia and I layed down on the couch. That damn chicken jumped up on the couch, wiggled between us and then went to sleep. Tricia and I were laughing so hard. I threw her off like 3 times and each time Super Girl would come right back. What a crock!

Well, that's all for now.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

2005-04-14T01:19:00.000-05:00

Black eye and bruises

2005-04-14T01:18:00.000-05:00

black eye and bruises

Black eye and bruises

2005-04-14T01:15:00.000-05:00

So I'm currently enrolled in a class on the Study of Non-Verbal Behavior. For our final project we had to study peoples non-verbal behavior. Some people dressed real nice and went to Frontenac and went shopping and then went home and changed clothes into something real dirty or goth like with the black lip stick and chains and stuff and went back and noted how they got treated differently because of their appearance. So I decided to give myself a big black eye and bruise on my head and go to work all weekend at the greenhouse. It was funny. Most of the people that I helped wouldn't even hold eye contact with me. They would just give me their money and then look down, or I could feel them staring at me while I was getting their change but when I looked up they would look down real fast. I only had a handful of people ask me what happened and they wouldn't even ask me over the counter. They waited until I finished their transaction and then came to the side of the register and asked me quietly, I assume not to embarass me. I told anyone that asked that I got in a silly fight over groceries with the boy that I was seeing. They either asked if I hit him back or just gasped and told me to take care. It was quite comical.

The funniest part was when this older lady, like 75 approached the counter. I made eye contact with her and smiled and without missing a beat she proclaims loudly "Well, I guess that will teach you to keep your mouth shut!" and she paid for her flowers and walked out. I couldn't hardly believe it.

Nicolas didn't care for it at all. He refused to take me to dinner or anywhere else until I washed it off. He was quite testy about it.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

I caught rain drops on the tip of my tongue

2005-04-11T18:15:00.000-05:00

It was a good weekend. A lot of driving, but worth it. It was basically like this: Go to work. Go to Illinois. Go to work. Go to Illionis. Go to work. Go to Illinois.... You get the point. Dad wasn't so happy about all the driving and me not being home all weekend. I hate it when dad's mad.

I did a very interesting project this weekend for my psych class. I will make a seperate post later.

So I'm reading this really great book by Mitch Albom. He wrote "Tuesday's with Morrie" a while back, while I was still in high school. While I was at Borders last week, I noticed that he had a new book out. It is titled "the five people you meet in heaven." I'm almost finished with it and I just came across a really great quote.

"Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."

I think this is so true. It reminds me of someone I know, or used to know.

That's all for now,
Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Soccer Sundays

2005-04-04T22:00:00.000-05:00

Weekend recap goes as follows...

Thursday: Finally dancing! I arrived alone because someone, I won't mention names, decided not to call me to let me know that she was leaving. So anywho, I went alone, and met up with everyone there. The Nickel showed up around 11. He had some beer and we left. It was good to go dancing again. It's only been like three weeks that I've been absent from it, but it seems like eternity.

Friday: I worked at Wiethop's till about 3:30. I hurried home and we left for the racetrack. What a joke. The weather decided not to cooperate at all. The race got cancelled and we were back at home and unloaded by 8:00. The Nickel took me to dinner at Friday's. Nothing too exciting.

Saturday: Worked at Wiethop's again. Alex and I got off around 3:30. I decided to take a snap on the couch. I fell asleep around 5:00. That's when I went to bed. I was so tired for some reason. So, Saturday was a wasted day. O well. Everyone needs a day like that sometimes.

Sunday: LOL Worked again. See a pattern here? After work I went to my friend Heather's house to take some shots of her and her mother for some business cards. It was great fun. She has two labs and it reaffirmed my belief that I need a big dog. Soccer was late, 11:15. It was a rough game. I got elbowed in the eye and I got laid out on the turf. I had those little black pellets in my mouth. Gross. But we kicked ass. We won 8-0.

Beautiful weather all weekend long. Plus we had daylight savings time, so now it's really like summer's almost here. I can't wait.

I knew it was going to be a good day today when I pulled into school and got a front row spot and didn't even have to wait for someone else to pull out first. We went to the park and painted in painting class, my photography teacher wasn't there, and I pulled my very first pot in ceramics today. I was so excited. We've been working on the wheel for three weeks now and just pulling cylinders up and then cutting them in half to try and learn about how the clay and the wheel works. Well I made a beautiful vase and got to keep it! Merry Christmas to everyone, ya'll are getting pots, and if you think I'm kidding, I'm not, so make some room.

I just feel as if I'm trying so hard at something, that is going nowhere. And not just that it's going nowhere, but I don't even know if it has anywhere to go. It's very frusterating and confusing. I agree with the saying that "actions speak louder than words," but words do have some meaning also. I feel like it's holding on for no reason, like it's just something to fill the gap between now and later. I suppose only time will tell, but how do you know when that time is up and when you are just dragging things along?

Sorry about that, just had to get some thoughts out. I apoligize if this causes any unrest. I'm sure I'll hear about it.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

I love you guys. All of you.

One fast mother...

2005-03-30T23:20:00.000-06:00

It was windy enough to blow your clothes off, but we still went racing. Overall a great night. We broke our fastest speed and ran an 11.95 at 114 mph, that's an increase from 11.97 at 112 mph. We were so excited, Alex met me at my car as I pulled into the pits doing the happy dance as I yelled "Yeah 11.95 at 114" and he adds "and you even drove it back in one piece!" It was a good night, I think we could have even gotten a little more out of it, if it hadn't been million mile an hour winds. Seen a lot of people from last season, it's like a giant family over there. Jason came over to see what a real race car looks like, and to put his two cents in on everything. (Just kidding Jason)

It was just an overall great day. I wish everyday could be like this. The weather was great (a little windy but I can't complain too much), school was fun (I even left early), good songs were on the radio, every stop light seemed to turn green at just the right time, it was as if nothing could go wrong.

A great ending to a great day. I hope for more of the same.

Until Then,
Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Cleaning or posting...

2005-03-29T23:44:00.000-06:00

I've been working on cleaning my room now for a while, so I decided to take a break and post a new entry. It's been a week or so since my last update. A lot has went on...where to start, where to start.

No dancing again Thursday, I had to set up my work for my Major Acceptance Review. It was 12:15am and Alex and I were still at school setting all my stuff up.

Friday was the big day. My review. I arrived at school at around 8:45 and already my nerves were flowing. The lady Nancy, with whom I shared my review space with, was already there, and I helped her to set out the bagels and strawberries that we bought to butter up our review panel. Nancy had her turn at 9:45 and I was next. I stood in the hall and was so worked up that I couldn't even swallow. I've never been that nervous or worked up in my life, but as soon as I walked in the door it was all gravy. I began talking and just never shut up. I talked a lot about my work and they asked me a lot of questions. Each student had 15 minutes to "wow" the panel and for the last 3 minutes of mine, we were talking about drag racing volkswagens, and how I needed to get everyone a race schedule. So, needless to say I left there feeling pretty good. I had to wait until Monday to get my results.

And the results are in........

I GOT ACCEPTED.

Thank God.

This weekend was nothing too fancy. I had petting zoos on Saturday, and Sunday, Tricia and I had to dress up like the easter bunny for a country club in Eureka. It was funny as hell. Tricia and I took turns in the suit, and we were playing air guitar and following people around. It was good. Sunday night the Nickel came over and we sat in the hot tub for a while. Good times, good conversation.

Tomorrow we start racing. We sent out sponsorship information earlier this week, so keep your fingers crossed that we get some takers. All the cars are fueled and ready to go. The gates open at 5 and we plan to be in line. It's just a test and tune, but points start Friday, so we want to at least see how the cars will run. I'm so excited.

The bus is back in order, daddy bought a new carberator for it and we were taking it around the block yesterday. I like it better now then before. The gas pedal just needs some adjusting. I have too much play in it and it messes me up while I'm trying to drive. All in good time I guess.

That's all for now, school is keeping me pretty busy. I start work at Weithop's on Friday, so maybe I'll have some spending cash finally. (yeah right)

Take care,
You know you love me,
*;)

I have to apoligize to everyone that had to come in contact with me this past week/end. It was a bad week for me and I am sorry to anyone and everyone who I was crabby to. This week proves to be a better one, so just hang in there.

Also, a GREAT BIG HUGE thank you to Aunt Patty. She just bought a real cool new digital camera, and I have been monopolizing it for a while now. She's been really patient, and hasn't yelled at me yet. Thank you thank you thank you. It's been a real big help.

2005-03-29T23:31:00.000-06:00

Yeeeessssss....Acceptance!

To beer or not to beer....

2005-03-22T16:58:00.000-06:00

So, I displayed my public art today at Dierbergs in Lemay. I had them all ready with the tape already on and Alex and I went in. We had to circle the store a couple of times because a man was stocking in that isle. The whole process took us about two minutes and I hurried and stuck the signs on and Alex snapped a couple of pictures and we hurried out. We plan to go back later tonight and see if they're still up. It was a great fun time though.

Nothing too exciting this weekend. We lost our soccer game Sunday 5-1. The other team had this fabulous goalie. Damn them. Then I tried to get into the hot tub Sunday night and realized that I had it set a little too high. I couldn't even get in all the way. The thermometer said it was 107 degrees. Yikes...it was hot!

We began wheel throwing yesterday in ceramics. What a joke. This girl in my class Emily and I were laughing soooo hard together. We were the only two that tried it out yesterday and we had clay going everywhere. By the fourth or fifth time we had it under control a little better. Hopefully, I will begin making beautiful pots for all to want....lol.

I'm working on preparing my portfolio for my Major Acceptance Review on Friday. I'm pretty nervous but I'm confident that things will go well. Wish me luck.

All for now, more to come.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

2005-03-22T16:46:00.000-06:00

Public Art at Dierbergs....

Whiney wishes

2005-03-20T00:30:00.000-06:00

It's been a bad night and I'm crabby and whiney so I decided to type some wishes and thoughts.

1) I'm having a hard time supporting my friend in a new relationship. Not even a relationship per say, but a new interest. This person is just acting their age, but has bigger responsiblities. I want to be excited and giddy right along with this person, but am having a hard time.

2) I wish sponsors would just come knock on your door. It would make this whole racing thing a whole lot easier.

3) I wish people would be more upfront on what their thinking and not leave it to guessing.

4) I wish the transmission wouldn't be going out on my red car.

5) I wish some people would grow up and stop being such fucking babies. Life sucks, but we all have to deal with it.

6) I'm having a hard time trying to decide what art pieces to put into my Major Acceptance Review on Friday. If they ask me to resubmit, which could happen, then I have till next fall to get some better stuff together. I don't need that kind of stress. I'll just have to do a good job this time.

7) I wish school was free.

8) I wish people wouldn't take things so seriously all the time. I'm a fun person and just like to make jokes with people. Lighten up.

9) I wish I could just go to bed and stop typing this crap. I apoligize to anyone who had to sit through this. My blogs are not intended to downtalk or upset anyone. I'm not trying to be mean just joking around.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Different shit same night....

2005-03-18T03:11:00.000-06:00

So last night was Thursday, you know what that means...dancing. Not last night. Due to my money crisis and lack of peers, I decided to do something different. I didn't know how to act at first, here it was 9:30 and I was drinking beer, so it kinda reminded me of Wild Country, but I was outside sitting in a lawn chair instead of inside dancing. It was alright though. Different for a change. I convinced my buddy Jason that I would come over if he bought the beer. He agreed. So, I got there and we went up to Quick Trip and made the beer purchase. Bud Light, nice choice. I sat and watched him put his front breaks together on his bug that he thinks is way cooler than mine (it's not). He's a typical boy about it though..."I got aluminum this and light-weight this and my car is going to be so bad....blah blah blah blah blah" I've heard enough. I'll believe it when I see it. And even after I see it, it still will be no way as near as cool as mine. Well, maybe as cool but definately not cooler. Just cool in a different way. Mine is turbo and his is going to have NOS. We'll see how it goes. Good luck with that Jason, I wish you the best. heheheh lol

So guess what big breakthrough happened today.....I DROVE THE BUS AROUND THE BLOCK. That's right I drove it. Shifted and everthing. It was sooooo.....bad. I hated it. I felt like I was driving in a tunnel. The carb was messed up and so was the gas pedal. Also, I couldn't get the mirrors adjusted just right. I just felt unsafe beacause I couldn't see all around me while I was driving. I like to be able to see what going on around me. Hopefully things get better, I don't know what would happen to me if I told Stephanie that I didn't like it. I think she's more excited about camping and driving in it than I am, if that's possible.

Well, it's 3:10 am and I need to get to bed. I have a petting zoo at some daycare in the morning.

Until Then,
You know you love me,
*;)

P.S. I need a bumper sticker that says "If the bus is a rockin', don't come a knockin'" If anyone has any ideas on where to get one, It would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

2005-03-16T19:22:00.000-06:00

Let me know what you think....

Mid Spring Break

2005-03-16T19:09:00.000-06:00

I'm bored. My buddy Donny left today for Amsterdam. He will be studying abroad for the second eight weeks of school. It will be sad without him. My carb came for the bus today. Dad worked on it for a bit, but then got frusterated (don't know if that's spelled correctly) (don't really care either). Basically I worked on my public art project all day long. I hope to be able to post it after I write this blog. It had to be about a social issue and you have to make like fliers or maganets or something and then display it in an appropiate place. Mine has to do with drunk driving, so I thought maybe I'd put them on cases of beer at the grocery store. Haha, wait for me to get kicked out. Otherwise today, I didn't do too much. Woke up at around 11 this morning. Someone kept me up on the telephone till all hours of the night last night. Thanks a lot. Anyways, I don't know about dancing tomorrow, depends on if I get some money. Nicolas won't be there, he's in Kentucky visiting family, and Tricia said she's prolly not coming either. So that means I'll go by myself, which wouldn't be the first time.

That's all for now, Cory's bitching at me to cut his hair, so I must end this.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Spring Break Time

2005-03-12T13:47:00.000-06:00

Welcome to Spring Break...It would be more fun if I was actually going somewhere. O well, just being off of school is good enough. This is a weird semester for me. I haven't really felt like I've produced a whole lot and I've been in classes for eight weeks. But I did finally come up with some inspiration, so hopefully some good art will come soon.

I didn't go dancing for the first time in a while. I'm having a money crisis you see. The problem is that I have no money. Although, I did talk to Wiethops this week and I'm starting there on April 1st. For those who don't know, Wiethops is a little greenhouse down the street, our two families have been friends for a long time. Dad does all the maintence on their lawn equiptment. So, if there's a special flower that is your favorite just let me know and I'll see what I can do about it.

I think my time at the farm is coming to an end. There is drama out there like no other. Everyone out there just needs to grow up, me included. We have a communication problem. Noone can ever keep a regular tone with each other, it's always like everyone is yelling at each other. Sure, we have good days, shit we have good weeks, but it always ends up the same, we always come back to fighting about the same things. Someone wants this day off and someone didn't do this right and so on and so forth. Everyone is in everyone's business, and thats fine because there's only four of us, but the problem is everyone is in everyone's business behind everyones back, and that's not right. It makes for not such a fun time. I'm tired of getting yelled at because I talked to someone. I'm not asking this person to buy me flowers and take me to dinner, I'm just asking to get an answer to a question. Geeeezzzeeee. If we work at the same place, then we have to learn to co-exist in the same area. How rediculas.

This is that last weekend that I have free. Next weekend is Pslam Sunday and we have a numberous number of petting zoos. So, I'm enjoying this weekend doing nothing. Today was the first day of test and tune over at Gateway Raceway. Hopefully the boy's motors will be finished soon and we can all go and break some parts!!! (Just kidding mom)

That's all I've got for now.
Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

It's cram time

2005-03-09T18:41:00.000-06:00

Here I sit. 6:41pm on Wednesday night. I have my last midterm in exactly 14 hours and 19 minutes. Am I ready for it? No way man. It's all slide memorization and I just can't drill it in. I periodicly gaze at them throughout the day and hope that something sinks in. AHHHH I just wish this was over. But by 10am tomorrow it will be. I'll be free to think as I like.

So my drag car took its first breath of fresh air yesterday. What a beautiful day it was. So now the search for sponsors is on. If you have any ideas please don't hesitate to let me know. I'll get a new pic up soon.

I think that sometimes we get so caught up in the busy details of everyday life that we forget to slow down and express to those who we care the most how much we really value them. We're living on borrowed time. Life is only so long and one never knows when their time is going to end. Live every day like it's your last and don't forget to express your feelings to those around you.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Pool Tables and Apple Sauce

2005-03-07T22:26:00.000-06:00

Weekend Scale Rating from 1-10...15.5

It was a good weekend. Thursday was dancing as usual. Tricia ended up going and Nicolas showed up later. Good wholesome fun. But it was really funny when we got back to his apartment. Apparently something smelled really bad when we got there, my nose was all clogged up so I didnt smell anything. But he was FREAKING out! So he decided it was the toilet and after a little bit he was fevorishly cleaning it. There's more to the story but you'll have to let him tell you the rest. Visit his blog at www.nicarley.tk and ask him yourself.

Friday, Daddy and I finished up getting the racecar motor in. Hopefully tomorrow we will start it up. I met Nicolas at the office and waited for him to finish his "work stuff." We went to his hometown, Salem. It was good fun. We went to some small bowling alley bar and they shot pool and we drank plenty of beer. It was fun to hang out with cool people in a cool place and not worry about anything for a change. Uncle Steve was a little much, but I suppose I'll forgive him this time. We ended up staying the night as his brother's place.

Saturday was not as exciting. I sat and played playstation with his brother's two kids while he did some wiring on their new house. ALL DAY LONG. O well, one thing was funny though. While in the attic, Nicolas missed the joyce he was supposed to step on and just about put his foot right through their ceiling. His actual foot didn't come through, but it cracked the ceiling and stuff. Funny.

Sunday was soccer at 4. We lost terribly. Half of our team wasn't there, so we had some random players help us out. Man we sucked so bad. I don't even want to talk about it. Nicolas actually came to watch. Of course, the game he actually comes to we lose, bad. O well at least he came.

So, on to another note. I don't like losing. If I know that I'm particularly bad at something and someone else is better, I just won't play. Why would you do something that you know you're going to lose at? Don't get me wrong now, I'll take risks, but if it's a for sure loss, I'm not so happy to do it. I understand that you will never get better at something if you don't try, and I do try just not in the view of certain people.

That's all for now. Wish me luck on my midterms. I'm studying all this week. I have spring break next week, and hopefully I'm going to run away with a certain someone. hehe

Take care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Life has a funny way of working itself out. Sometimes it just needs time to run it's course. Take your time.

Happy Birthday to Alex

2005-03-01T14:53:00.000-06:00

So Alex turned 16 today. What a day. He's been real mouthy all day and I told him that I liked 15 much better. So I feel bad because I didn't get him a gift yet, but I don't have any money. Like none. Zip Zero Zilch Nada. I'll get him one as soon as my money tree begins to blossom.

Racing season is quickly approaching. I can't wait. Daddy's been putting my motor back together and checking everything out getting it ready to put in. Hopefully we'll put it in on Friday. I just can't wait for the sweet smell of burning alcohol and tire smoke. Friday nights at the racetrack are like an escape from reality for me. It's like a mini vacation. It's a bunch of nerves and anticipation, sitting on the starting line waiting for the tree to fall. Total concentration.

So I have a mid-term in my Study of Non-Verbal Behavior class on Thursday. I don't think it's going to be that bad. I haven't missed any classes and I've taken fairly good notes. Plus she's going to give us like 16 words to define and we have to choose nine that we think we can do our best on. Then she's going to give us six essay questions and we have to pick three. So that doesn't sound all that bad.

I still need to shoot some pictures for my Public Art project in photography. I need a nice day and Tricia and Nicolas. Good luck with that, I know.

Tricia and Taylor got into a car accident last night on their way home. While I was heading home around 7:00 the radio kept saying how Highway 30 was slick and everyone becareful and such. Well Tricia said that the car that was in front of her started to lose control and then hit the car in front of it. She pulled on to the side of the road to make sure everyone was alright and as she was standing in front of her truck another truck came and hit the back of hers pushing it into her! She started screaming that Taylor was in the truck and ran and got her. Luckly it wasn't too bad. She said her hip just really hurts and her bumper is bent and a couple of scratches. Taylor was sleeping the whole time. What a mess!

So Joe got outta jail today. I wonder how that went. I'm waiting to hear from Dana later this evening. Everywhere I go now, more pieces fall into place. Alex and I had went up to Sam's today to drop off some film and then I started thinking about how I gave Joe two rolls of film to drop off while he was "working" and then like four weeks later I found them in the van right where I put them. And all he could say is that he must have forgot to drop them off. But like five days after he was supposed to drop it off and it was ready to be picked up and it wasnt there and I asked him about it, he was like "I don't know, I droped it off, they must have lost it" hmmmmmmmmmmm. It all comes together now.

A lot of random thoughts today. That's how my brain has been working lately. Really scattered.

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

Friendship is like peeing in your pants. Everyone can see it, but only you can feel the warmth.

And the weekend closes....

2005-02-27T19:44:00.000-06:00

So, I made it, and all of the children are still alive. LOL. Although on Saturday morning I was making a call out for three body bags, one extra small and two small. It went well though. I think it would have been different if I was at my own home. I just felt like I got nothing done, probably because I got nothing done. If I was at my house I could have done something while the children slept. It was alright though. We all played at the park for 2 1/2 hours on Friday, and I had to be a "park mom" and I hated it! I had to listen to other moms complain how they can't keep their house clean, and how do I get my children to behave so well and on and on. I was like "oh these aren't mine, I just have them on lease for the weekend"

Nicolas finally showed up on Saturday night around 7:40. Of course, after Taylor had left and Mitchie was in bed. How convenient! It was funny though, we seen Aunt Moni pull in and he thought it would be funny if we were sitting on the couch with the television off reading the bible together. She came in and was like "Thank God you guys aren't naked, Wait what are you doing! Stop that!" It was pretty funny. We left there and came back to my house and sat in the hot tub for I know at least 2 hours probably longer. We were so pruney! We slept in this morning, well slept in as long as you can sleep in while the vaccuum is going. We helped dad with our input on the bus lights dad was working on and made some runs to Auto Zone. We sat in the hot tub once more and I left for soccer and he went back to school. We won our soccer game 3-1 and all was good.

So, on to some different news. So this won't mean a lot to people who don't know my past, but for those who do, you're not going to believe this. So I came into my room this morning and I had a voicemail on my cell phone. It was a number I didn't recognize so I called and listened to the message. It was Dena, the girl that Joe was sleeping with when he and I were together. Remember that whole deal? Well so, she wanted me to call her back, she said she didn't want to start any shit, just had some questions. And so I called, and her and I hit it off and talked for like 40 minutes. I learned more about Joe in 40 minutes then I did in 2 1/2 years of dating him. She must have apoligized to me like twenty times, saying she was so sorry for seeing him while I was, but he was lying to her too. I was like "that's alright, I'm well over that now." But anywho, remember I let him live here for 6 months and drive my cars and eat our food and so on and so forth, and he never paid us anything...well he told me he was working at Sams. Dena tells me he only worked there for ONE WEEK. One week, can you believe that shit. He "worked" there for like 4 months as far as I knew. She said he would come over to her house in my car!!!!! WTF?! And I knew something was fishy with him working there, but he is a very good liar. She said sometimes he would park my car up there in the parking lot and then Shaun would come pick him up and they would go out. See, he was very smart and always came home right at like 6:30am because he "got off work" at like 6:00. And I would ALWAYS ask him about how his day at work was and he would concoct this huge story about how work went. Jeeezzzee what a fool. She said he told her that the only reason he stayed here was because he didn't have anywhere else to live, and that we didn't even sleep in the same bed. Where else would he sleep? What a crock! And I told her how he would cry to me and tell me how much he loved me and how sorry he was that he made me sad and that he would make things better soon and she started laughing about how he does that same stuff to her. Man, this guy is good. So he's in jail and has been since January 3rd. She says he gets out Tuesday, and he wants her to come and pick him up and bring him cigarettes and weed. What an idiot. He's on probation for 5 years but she says he says that if he smokes right out of jail then he will flush out before they test him. Good luck with that. She says shes not risking her job and family (she has a 3yr old boy) to take a day off work to come and pick up his ass. I joked with her and told her that we should show up together down at Clayton when he gets out. She laughed and said, "he probably wouldn't even get in the car." Probably right. She said she had been meaning to call me sooner but Joe had deleted all my numbers and everything from everywhere so she couldn't get to them. So after a lot of tracking she got a hold of me. I enjoyed the conversation and it gave me a little more closure, because I was just so out in the dark about everything about him. Our whole relationship was a lie. Well, she told me more stuff but I think that's enough for now. Life is funny isn't it?

It's Sunday night, let's have one hell of a week this week. Summer's coming!

Take Care,
You know you love me,
*;)

End of the weekend...

2005-02-27T18:35:00.000-06:00